soldier girl (;

it's christmas eve already, but it doesn't feel like it.
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1o things to be happy about:

1. mummy has been randomly & extremely nice to me.

2. i've made some new good friends. (i could only tell if they stand the test of time)

3. i don't feel any pressure at all about this, it's pretty different.

4. i feel that i click very well with my oldest brother despite being 5 years younger.

5. ben is so nice & mature after going into NS.

6. my mum received 4 christmas presents today. & i ate 1 of them (which was the only edible one).

7. my oldest brother is holding his 21st birthday party at the american club (which is soo lame & expensive. i wanted a chalet ah, but it's abit too late to book already). the people better eat alot, or they'll be wasting my mum's moneyzxz >:( i know my brother's gonna be reading this, but it's okay even if i called it lame- he's a strong man. & i've already planned what present(s) to get him (it's gonna be a very big surprise, i love planning surprises for people haha, so this is a happy thing). mummy asked me to invite a few of my friends.. so if you're a big eater, you're on the top of my mind HAHA.

8. I'M EITHER GOING TO PERTH OR TOKYO IN JAN FOR A HOLIDAY. i'm supposed to choose one, & i've decided perth because i hate the cold. I HATE THE COLD. i hate the cold. it's nice & warm & sunny in perth during jan (i think). then after that, it's BANGKOK with amanda (:

9. when my mum flies to taiwan to work in feb, & i happen to stay behind in sg, i'm gonna get a pet dog! even though all my past pets have died under my care, some in a rather brutal way.. let me try & recall:

- my fighting fish. i gave it bread to eat. but it doesn't eat bread, so it died /:

- my terrapin. i forgot to feed it, & a week later, i found out it was dead.

- my hamster. i think i fed it too much, i don't know. but when i came home, there was blood & it was dead. (eh, maybe my brother killed it while i was out. then that wouldn't be my fault)

- my bird (tt my grandma caught for me). i let it hop about on the floor at my garden until quite far away from me, then a cat came & ate it. but on a lighter note, i saved a baby bird before! it was just learning how to fly, & it flew into my toilet & landed in the toilet bowl. then it was drowning. but i called my maid, & she scooped it out. ..okay, so i didn't exactly save the bird, but if i didn't call my maid, it would've drowned in my toilet bowl okay!

-my tadpoles. i didn't know what tadpoles ate, & i was just a stupid primary school girl who had yet to discover the power of googling questions. so i didn't feed it, & it died.

-my cute little guppies! gee, i don't even know how they died. i just know they're not alive anymore..

indirectly killed pets:
-my other hamster. i called it Limpy. i didn't exactly cause it's death, but it was found dead at the backyard on the floor. i don't know how Limpy died, but it died under my care /: i kept it in a shoe box at that time. & i'm positive it couldn't have crawled out all the way from the living room- it's not called Limpy for no reason. it's 2 hind legs were disabled. & WHAT ARE YOU THINKING, I WASN'T THE ONE WHO DISABLED IT LAH. the shopkeeper gave it to me for free to take care, cause it was disabled. but i guess it suffered a worst fate other than not being able to move about easily after i took over..

- i sorta killed my dog. cause i scared it at night by going "boo!" behind it when it was sleeping. being a guard dog, it reacted to it's natural instinct & turned behind to bite me. according to dog experts, it tasted my blood. so it started biting everybody & became too aggresive. then we had to send it to spca where it got put to sleep. that was like the saddest day of my life :(

wow, i really suck HAHA. maybe i shouldn't get a dog afterall.



10. i had a very good childhood, & would stay in my childhood for an eternity if i had a choice. my childhood was something i never ever felt regret for.